Something strange happened to me yesterday, I lost a friend. I didn’t lose them in the they ‘died’ physically sense, I lost them in the ‘we have grown so far apart’ that I feel I don’t really know, or understand them anymore. We still have all the same connections and history but the ease, the understanding, the not having to think what to say, even that special not needing to make conversation element has just gone, I was finding them hard work. I feel sad about it, there is a little part of me, my life, that has vanished. It’s not as if we had an arguement or a disagreement, nothing unpleasant was said but things were different. I’ve been musing on it, trying to analyse my feelings and it’s as if they have become a different person, someone I would have as an aquaintance due to work but would never chose to have as a friend. Perhaps it’s me that has changed or it may be that, like an old married couple, we have grown apart but it just seems to have happened so quickly. I’m not the only person to have commented on my friend’s change though, they met one of my daughters, and before I even mentioned my disquiet to daughter she had gone off on a little rant about them as they had upset her and that is not the person I knew.
What do I do? I said to Hubby that I couldn’t even me bothered to speak to them, that I wasn’t worried about not having them around anymore, but that’s not true, I just want my old friend back.